Stake conference

Marriage advice: keep trying. Be a better adipose by selfless service. True happiness on marriage comes when we or or spouse's happiness above our own. Use the atonement in marriage.

Simplify my life by strengthening my love for the Lord. By prayerfully getting rid of things. And by

Love those you teach. Instead of thinking about myself or what I think I need to or what I want to teach. Think about what they need.

What if they don't tell me and I don't know?
Do I just ask? Maybe this is the time in my life when i have to figure out how to get their needs in a different way of asking, when asking doesn't work.

Study Teaching on the Savior's Way online.

When I study the scriptures I get trained to get answers to prayers and understand the voice of the spirit.

My spirit needs nourishment just like my body. Think of fasting.

Look and pray for daily opportunities to serve. Service will fill my life with the spirit มากยิ่งขึ้น. Pray specifically about how to serve. And pray with all my heart for charity so that I can feel love for others. And when I  get promptings, thank Heavenly Father for them and for helping me recognize them.

Motherhood

Motherhood is getting tiring and purposeless for me. But I don't want it to be that way. I want to love it like I did that first year.

I'm trying to take the issue to the Lord because no one else totally get a me and what's more, no one else can actually fix it for reals. I figure if I have a testimony of motherhood and it's divinity and if I truly know that is what Heavenly Father wants me to be doing right now...neither of which I have yet...then it will be easier for me. I will have more purpose and faith and willingness to do it because I will know he wants me to and he is proud of me. My approval and Joseph' and Conley's and outsiders' just isn't proving to be enough.

So I studied a chapter in Benson's prophet book. He talks about how the calling of motherhood is sacred and noble. "No more sacred word exists in secular or holy writ than that of mother. There is no more noble work than that of a good and God-fearing mother."

And

"We honor you as you bear, nourish, train, teach, and love for eternity. I promise you the blessings of heaven and “all that [the] Father hath” (see D&C 84:38) as you magnify the noblest calling of all—a mother in Zion."

He also gives some tips on how to magnify our callings as mothers, which I just prayed for. One of them is to be at the crossroads of their comings and goings. He says to be their true friend. He says to pray in Faith with them and read to them. He says to teach them gospel principles. He says to prayerfully work at the things that are difficult...like showing love to older children as opposed to younger. But that applies to anything. The prayerful working.

No contention

Because they were living the gospel fully and truly. And they had the LOVE of God in their hearts. I forgot this this weekend when I was getting frustrated with bridesmaids. I want to be better about this.

In His name

Learned an interesting thing in church today. In gospel doctrine they are teaching 3 Nephi 27 and talking about doing things in this name. Christ in there says that the church should be called in this name if it is His church. Usually my head stopped there when I have read this in the past. But this time unrealized the Christ also says that everything should be done in his name. Gosh that is so important. Teaching John our neighbor this week made me think about Catholicism a lot. And other religions and general. This church does things in Christ's name. Everything! Blessings prayers lessons ordinances everything. That is amazing and unique. And I want to try to always be worthy to do that, to do things in His name end to represent Him. 

Scriptures!

Scriptures rock! It's so cool when scriptures talk about scriptures too. In the hymn As I Search the Holy Scriptures, they're are some really great footnotes. In 2 Tim it says that the scriptures are profitable for reporting and correction and perfection. And in Romans it says they are profitable for comfort and hope. It just love that so much and am so humbled that I have been able to experience all of those with the scriptures.

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Hales:
We all want to be converted. Think about that when sharing the gospel. Every soul is looking for conversion, to know God again. Keep a spiritual perspective.

Calls to action
Pray to over come nervousness to share the gospel.
Love more,and I will suffer less.
Remember the beauty of the gospel and plan of happiness and remember how delicious it is. Allow that to affect how I treat people, how I feel about church and callings, etc.
I can't even begin to try to share the gospel until I love a person. That may be the first step of my missionary work with some people (who I don't love sincerely yet).
Study about Korihor and compare him to things that tempt me or affect my joy today
Study how to worship and make Sunday more sincerely worshipful
Also prepare for the sacrament more

Gc

I watched the women's session and it was so good. The first speaker talked about charity. She said sometimes we look at the chicken instead of the peacock in people. I liked that and I think it's true. The second one talked about how powerful the atonement is. How it can heal us. She shared a result sweet story of a girl with bipolar disorder. The next talk made me think that I need to figure out how to testify of truth and to teach the gospel perspective about hard things like same sex attraction. I feel like I would struggle with testifying of the gospel perspective on that of someone struggled with it because I wouldn't want to offend them. And she mentioned that. That we too often fear being offensive. I need to work on that I guess.  I need to figure out the black and white.  I feel like there is so much gray though. Out just seems impossibly hard.

The last talk was about faith. I lobbed Ott because he mentioned things that faith cannot do. Like take away someone's agency. Or force God to do something. I want to listen to it again so I can catch the call to action.