Jesus Christ my center

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Is Jesus Christ my center? Is His Atonement the center of everything i do and say and think?

She talks about Mortal perception and spiritual perception. Mortal perception is something that causes learning bit by bit every day right now. I want to remember to teach him to observe his spiritual perception and to be in tune with it, since that is where real truth and stability and happiness will come in his life.

"It is only the limitations of our mortal perceptions that give us this illusion of isolation from God. As soon as we embrace our spiritual way of knowing, we find that God is as close to us as we allow Him to be, and His communication with us is constant."

"Because our concrete physicality tends to predominate, we are constantly reminded to take time away from our busy mortal activities so that we can develop our skills in spiritual perception. We gain this spiritual training by immersing ourselves in engaged Church activity, temple attendance, scripture study, and sincere personal prayer."

Teach by example.

I felt a spiritual rebuking recently regarding how I talk about people and also my language in general. The natural man and me as a rapper mouth compared to what I want to be, and also a somewhat cynical point of view toward people. I would much rather be positive to be around, and that takes effort. I don't want to suppress my feelings but I want to redirect Energies to lift others instead. And I also want to be a good example and conversation and word and deed. I think this will become more important in my life as my kids get older and as I have different callings.

"Nothing unseemly should come from our lips that would give any child the right or the privilege to do wrong." Howard W Hunter

People I can serve

Landon by living and listening to him and testifying when I feel inclined.

Joseph by making his lunch. Making him dinner. Sending him nice texts or snaps throughout the day. Asking him questions about what he is learning. Praying for him. Praying for ways to serve him and for strength to be supportive. Being kind to and about his family.

My siblings by talking with them and praying for them. Asking them if there is anything i can do for them

Neighbors by helping them with yard work and greeting them.

Christina Beck by praying for her. 

Stake conference

Marriage advice: keep trying. Be a better adipose by selfless service. True happiness on marriage comes when we or or spouse's happiness above our own. Use the atonement in marriage.

Simplify my life by strengthening my love for the Lord. By prayerfully getting rid of things. And by

Love those you teach. Instead of thinking about myself or what I think I need to or what I want to teach. Think about what they need.

What if they don't tell me and I don't know?
Do I just ask? Maybe this is the time in my life when i have to figure out how to get their needs in a different way of asking, when asking doesn't work.

Study Teaching on the Savior's Way online.

When I study the scriptures I get trained to get answers to prayers and understand the voice of the spirit.

My spirit needs nourishment just like my body. Think of fasting.

Look and pray for daily opportunities to serve. Service will fill my life with the spirit มากยิ่งขึ้น. Pray specifically about how to serve. And pray with all my heart for charity so that I can feel love for others. And when I  get promptings, thank Heavenly Father for them and for helping me recognize them.

Motherhood

Motherhood is getting tiring and purposeless for me. But I don't want it to be that way. I want to love it like I did that first year.

I'm trying to take the issue to the Lord because no one else totally get a me and what's more, no one else can actually fix it for reals. I figure if I have a testimony of motherhood and it's divinity and if I truly know that is what Heavenly Father wants me to be doing right now...neither of which I have yet...then it will be easier for me. I will have more purpose and faith and willingness to do it because I will know he wants me to and he is proud of me. My approval and Joseph' and Conley's and outsiders' just isn't proving to be enough.

So I studied a chapter in Benson's prophet book. He talks about how the calling of motherhood is sacred and noble. "No more sacred word exists in secular or holy writ than that of mother. There is no more noble work than that of a good and God-fearing mother."

And

"We honor you as you bear, nourish, train, teach, and love for eternity. I promise you the blessings of heaven and “all that [the] Father hath” (see D&C 84:38) as you magnify the noblest calling of all—a mother in Zion."

He also gives some tips on how to magnify our callings as mothers, which I just prayed for. One of them is to be at the crossroads of their comings and goings. He says to be their true friend. He says to pray in Faith with them and read to them. He says to teach them gospel principles. He says to prayerfully work at the things that are difficult...like showing love to older children as opposed to younger. But that applies to anything. The prayerful working.

No contention

Because they were living the gospel fully and truly. And they had the LOVE of God in their hearts. I forgot this this weekend when I was getting frustrated with bridesmaids. I want to be better about this.

In His name

Learned an interesting thing in church today. In gospel doctrine they are teaching 3 Nephi 27 and talking about doing things in this name. Christ in there says that the church should be called in this name if it is His church. Usually my head stopped there when I have read this in the past. But this time unrealized the Christ also says that everything should be done in his name. Gosh that is so important. Teaching John our neighbor this week made me think about Catholicism a lot. And other religions and general. This church does things in Christ's name. Everything! Blessings prayers lessons ordinances everything. That is amazing and unique. And I want to try to always be worthy to do that, to do things in His name end to represent Him.