Faith been's low

My faith has been low again. I don't really know what to do. I haven't had much motivation for a week or so. But I feel now that I want to read the BoM. I'm still working on Nelson's challenge to finish it by the end of the year. I love reading it so quickly. It's so fun. I learn new things and patterns really stick out to me. This time, the patterns I see so much are what people say to negate truth or to make you feel stupid. The BoM was written for our day, I swear. It's like God knew all the things people would say. They really haven't changed much over time.

I was thinking this week about how medicine sometimes just seems more effective than Jesus's atonement. It seems that might be true, about physical and mental ailments. It sucks. Watching Meredith Beck this week, as a 14 year old, going through such intense anxiety and sleep deprivation, the prayers and priesthood blessings just like haven't worked. And so I was thinking, well what's the point then? I don't really know. I guess we will see what happens. But I did remember today during the Sacrament how sweet the spiritual healing that comes from the Savior and His Atoenment is, when I seek it and am worthy of it. Nothing can copare to it. But with mental struggles, it's tough, because you can't even really get spiritual ...feelings, blessings, etc., when you are mentally distraught. Moira, Meredith. I guess I just have to do some learning about this.

Also, I'm realizing how sensitive my Spirit is. It's taken me a couple weeks to really realize how true that is, how much things affect me. I'm not talking about violent movies and language. I'm talking about ideas. I love NPR. I love the podcasts and the books I've been reading. And I don't want to stop learning. But the opinions of those things are what are harmful to me. I want to learn facts and make decisions. But advertising to others seems to be somewhat contentious, unless it's inspired by the Spirit. Anyway. I've been taking a break from NPR, and I thnk I will continue to do so.

Quickly answered prayers

I just feel so incredibly blessed, because I asked for a lot of things yesterday and I got them all today. I just don’t know how or why it was so quickly. I don’t know I have Heavenly father wants to bless me so much and does blessed me so much. Yesterday I prayed to stop having unwanted dreams, specifically those about past relationships. Last night I didn’t have any. I also prayed for faith, hope and peace, based on the scripture that I read in Alma 58:11. I was just feeling some unwanted distance from heavenly father. I prayed  on Monday, more than most common playlist today more than normal. I was hoping to just feel closer to heavenly father and Jesus Christ of my mind. I wanted to have faith that the right name Grace could help my soul feel whole.

prayer and boasting

1. Prayer. My soul was so crunchy and crusty and tired today. I was dragging. And irritable. We went to Beth's and I felt weird and crunchy around her. In her basement, I remembered God. So I prayed and asked Him to help me soften and feel love. I felt so good when I was thinking about Jesus during that prayer. And about the scriptures. And I just longed to read them.

2. Boasting. Alma 39 starts with Alma condemning Corianton for a few sins, and the first one, significantly, was boasting. I think that is how all sins really start: with pride. It made me want to be more humble, and seek learning and want to learn and realize things I don't know and need to learn. And not see myself as super knowledgeable about ... mostly anything--because I can learn more for all of them!

3. More boasting. In Alma 41 it says that our desires will be restored to us: good for good, evil for evil. What do I desire? When I have prideful thoughts, or want glory for myself, that's what I'll get! And it won't last, because it has nothing to do with God. What do I truly want in situations and in life? Think about that sincerely, because that is what I'll get. And if it doesn't involve God and bringing glory to Him and drawing closer to Him, it should be moot to me as well.

4. How to be humble: Alma 42:30 "Let the justice of God, and his mercy, and his long-suffering have full sway in your heart; and let it bring you down to the dust in humility." Think about Jesus and how good He is, how much He loves me, How much has has done and can do and will do for me. His long-suffering toward me. That will help me be humble

easily forget

Helaman 13 is morbid a little, but it's a good chapter to take seriously and read as a reminder. To not forget the Lord. It says that it's easy for man to set their hearts on vain things, and to forget the Lord their God, and how He can do ANYTHING, and how He can help them...and curse them.

The other day I was thinking and feeling like I didn't have a ton to pray about for some reason. I thought that I wanted to pray and I wanted my prayers to be meaningful, but I felt they were a little empty. Then I remembered the scriptures, and how connected they are to pray. They give me what to pray about. They give me things to work on and things to ask for help with or thank or talk to Him about.

So then I read this chapter--feeling extra grateful for the scriptures. And I was reminded how easy it is for ME to forget Him throughout the day, and to focus on vain things or on myself. Or just to rely on myself, or the arm of flesh. Heavenly Father wants to be involved in my day.

What are some way I can remember Him?

• Talk about Him
• read my journal
• read my scriptures
• be grateful
• ask Him for help or guidance with lots of things
• work on goals
• apply what I learn
• be kind and loving to others
• think about how I can be an instrument in His hands
• recite scriptures and hymns

The Holy Ghost

When have I heard and listened to the Holy Ghost?

I can't really remember a time when He was warned me, and I was sure it was Him. But I have tried to listen to my gut...taken certain roads, checked the doors and windows, etc. But I have received sooo much from the Holy Ghost. Revelation. Comfort.

Larry Wilson's talk from april 2018. He says, in order to increase us hearing the HG, we must:

• tune our spiritual radio to heaven's signal
• do I need to be more obedient? Do I need to repent? Yes, probably. So, what do I need to repent of? What sins do I need to turn from? 
• ask what I can do to be part of the solution I need
• don't just list problems in prayer; instead, ask for ways I can help
• practice listening to the Spirit. practice, pray for opp.s to practice.
• pray about more things. I can pray about more things than I think. Don't be slothful. The more I talk to Him, the more I can hear Him, and practice listening to the Spirit. 
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teach the doctrine

I'm reading "Teach the Doctrine" in Teaching in the Savior's Way for tomorrow's lesson. It's good. It's made me think this:

i need to pray and ask for confirmation that what the Church sees as doctrine, or what is in the scriptures, is really God's doctrine, His laws. And ask for confirmation for that before I teach them. Then when I teach, be sure to focus on how each principle relates back to Jesus Christ, His Atonement, and His gospel. And look at what I teach (doctrine, principles, commandments) as relating to God's overall plan for salvation and happiness of all His people.

Alma 12:32 says that God gave his people commandments after teaching them about the plan of redemption.

Also teach that the doctrine comes from the scriptures, ancient and modern.

TEach the youth (and my children) (and everyone) to liken the scriptures unto themselves. Pick a verse where you can insert their name into.

How people fail

As I’m reading Helaman, I’ve just been thinking about what the main factor is for people to fall away. Earlier in the book it was internal contention in a city. Then it was trusting in their own arm or other’s instead of trusting in God. And now (chapter 6) it’s setting your heart on riches. 

All of these things have one thing in common: putting something before God. I think the biggest factor to someone spiritual failure is whatever is going to catch them up. Whatever Satan knows will be hardest for them. He tried them at lots of different levels.  

Helaman 4 makes it really clear that there are two options in life: trust in myself/the arm of flesh or trust in God. It doesn't mean God has to or will or even can do everything for us, but it means that we should try our hardest and do all we can, trusting that He will guide, and then following His guidance once we receive it. People's LIVES depended (their own lives even!) on that, and lots still disobeyed.

Just stuff lately

I've been reading in the beginning of Helaman. It's been really great. It's amazing how quickly people go from being good to being evil. It's so sad. Just within a few years They just forget. Also I've liked this time how lots of people dedicated their lives to preaching about Christ It made me want to ponder how I do if and if it's effective. But it's not enough and I know that. Also there was one verse in chapter 2 or 3 that talked about the word of God dividing asunder the stuff that's confusin and the stuff of God: Helaman 3:29 "Yea, we see that whosoever will may lay hold upon the word of God, which is quick and powerful, which shall divide asunder all the cunning and the snares and the wiles of the devil, and lead the man of Christ in a strait and narrow course across that everlasting gulf of

misery which is prepared to engulf the wicked." the word, Also

What revelation/manifestations of the Spirit did I receive today?

Sacred Grove

I went to Katanyoo's wedding in Palmyra last weekend. I stopped by the Sacred Grove afterward. Eloise was asleep in the car, and the other people with me (Debbie, Nad, and Phim) stayed with her in there. So I got to just go inside the Sacred Grove all by myself. It was a sacred place, and I felt reverent. It was so quiet and beautiful, and I really felt the Spirit. As I walked along the path into the grove, I was just thinking and praying. I have questions (see previous post). I had kind of prayed to receive some answers, or just some understanding. I need a little more than just peace. But I want that too.

While I was walking, though, it just seemed so clear. The purpose of the gospel, of the restoration. The world was finally ready. Joseph Smith was an imperfect person and had to work through a lot of kinks and mistakes, some of which we are still ironing out and all that (and that were added to by Brigham Young for sure), but the core of it is here (the priesthood, temple, ordinances, Book of Mormon). And why? Why is it all here? To make us happy. To prepare the world for Jesus. To allow us to overcome faults and weaknesses. What's the result? Goodness. And good.

It was like Heavenly Father was saying to me, "I know it was and is imperfect. You all are human! How could it be perfect! I had to work with what I had. But look at the results, despite the human imperfections that brought them about! Look at the happiness and joy you experience and others have experienced. That's what it's all about."

Questions I need revelation about

Why is the prophet, the last say, a man? Does God value a man's opinion more than a woman's?

Is President Nelson God's mouthpiece? Did God lead him to choose his two counselors?

Are garments really what Heavenly Father wants me to wear? Or are they just a cultural thing that someone in the church came up with?

Why doesn't the church apologize about withholding the priesthood and temple blessings from Black people?

Are the temple ordinances from God?

Do we need to hold people who don't know or understand the gospel to the same standard (with commandments, and then laws) as those who do?

Lorenzo Snow said this: "This is the grand privilege of every Latter-day Saint...that it is our right to have the manifestations of the Spirit every day of our lives." Wow! Is this true? If so, what revelation did I receive yesterday? The day before? Maybe I should ask myself this. What revelation did I receive today. I guess a manifestation of the Spirit, might be different from revelation. To me, a manifestation of the Spirit could just be feeling the Spirit, knowing something, feeling a confirmation of something, feeling love from Heavenly Father, etc. While revelation seems to be more of a thing. Here's what TTTF says about revelation: "Revelation is communication from God to His children."

Heavenly Father wants me to be a revelation-receiving daughter. I need to take a more active role in this.

Nelson's stuff about revelation

President Nelson gave an amazing, bursting talk (bursting with good stuff) in April 2018 about revelation. The things that have touched me so far, that I think I'm supposed to apply:

write revelation down
find a quiet space
pray and search the scriptures
God WANTS to reveal things to me. Am I asking Him? Trusting He will tell me? Specific things?

A pure life will help me prepare to receive revelation. Things like temple attendance, scripture study, keeping the commandments, pray, and family history help me prepare to receive it.

I want to write down my questions and pray about them every day.

Discernment/sending spies

Moroni was actively looking for threats to his army, and also their plans, so he could sufficiently strategize. I should be looking for threats to my family or testimony. I can pray and ask what these threats might be, and I can plan ways to combat them so I can keep my family and myself safe.

One is: taking a non-spiritual perspective toward things. News. People's actions. Books. Movies.

Danger of anger

Anger is dangerous. In Alma 43:29, Moroni knew (maybe through the power of discernment) that Zerahemnah just wanted to destroy and captivate the Nephites. The footnotes for this scrioture lead to three different examples of captains getting their peoole ready to fight and captivate by stirring them up to anger.

Sometimes I get caught up in anger. There's not a good result to this. And I should recognize other peoole or things trying to do that to me too (even the news).

Prophet Joseph, priesthood, motherhood

Today I felt the Spirit so stron gin the YW lesson. Especially when Melissa PEtty (13) shared what she learned from the lesson. She said that it just made so much sense to her that Joseph Smith was insprired by God. She said, "It would be impossible to do everything he did without God behind him. God has a purpose for him and was behind it." She usually says funny things during that last few minutes when we share what we learned, but today she was really reverent and I could tell she was sincere. I also just liked the lesson overall. The girls had a lot to share about the resotration and Joseph Smith. They seemed like they learned something. And I just felt a burning in my bossom that confimred to me that Joseph Sith was a prophet and that he was so inspired with most of the things that he did. I'm grateful for him and to him.

Also, during the preisthood discussion (How can we use the priesthood?), We talked about operating under delegated priesthood authority. And it made me think we were ready really soon to watch the interview  with the general YW presidency about how the YW responsibilities as class presidencies are equal to the aaronic priesthood holders' responsibilities with the Sacrament and whatnot. this information is a blessing to me, especially as a leader for the girls.  And during that same discussion, one of the sister missionaries pointed out in Alma 13:2 that it says priests get the priesthood, but in verse 3 it says that the reason is so that "the people" (not just the priests thmesleves, or men in general or whatever)might know about God through th power of the preisthood. So men holding the preisthood hold it so that we can ALL benefit and know God.

From an Ensign article this month: "I know that my daily efforts to magnify my calling as a mother bring me closer to Jesus Christ," The lady said that her phrase was "itn's not about you," that we are doing these things as mothers, for our children, but moreso, for God and for our relationship with Him. And instead of worrying about what people think about me, I should worry only about waht the Lord thinks of me.

She mentions Nicole Johnson's video about how she felt invisiable as a mother. Then a friend gave her a book of amazing cathedrals, and she noticed taht in most of them, the builder/architect was "unknown." Those builders built amazing, incredible, strong works of art not to be seen of men, but for God. he saw, and He knew.

Anyway. Being a mom is so important. And I do so many good and important things every day.

Dismissing what the Lord does

Just like Pharaoh hardened his heart when Moses and Aaron showed him signs and wonders from God, and said that they weren't from God and all that we can dismiss what God says or does. We can say it wasn't from him or decide not to obey it for some reason or justify not obeying it. The story makes me want to think about how God is trying to reach out to me.

How to give credit to the Lord

We can give credit to the Lord for the gifts and skills he has given us by using them to glorify him and bless others. Ask myself if that is WHAT I am doing with them.

I haven't thought about this as a way to give credit to the Lord/not myself. But it's awesome!

Daily Bread

I'm learning a lot from Tom Christofferson's That We May Be One. In chapter 4, he talks about daily bread. He says that we should focus on the present instead of worrying about the future. He says that we should face each trial, however insurmountable it may seem, just with each day. He asks parents of gay or transgender children to focus on each day by day, not think about how their child will marry in ten years or whatever. He also shares some amazing quotes.

Neal A. Maxwell: "Just as the capacity to defer gratification is a sign of realy maturity, likewise the willingness to wait for deferred explanation is a sign of real faith and of trust spread over time."

Tom says when we need answers, we should first pray for patience. He says we should look at trials like revelation: they reveal us to ourselves, and show us what we need to learn. And, if we handle them right, they reveal the Savior unto us as well.

I also just read a talk in the Ensign, called "Finding Answers for Myself" (https://www.lds.org/ensign/2018/02/young-adults/finding-answers-for-myself?lang=eng). In it, the author advises to go into question with the perspective of "This doesn't make sense to e now, but I'm confident that over time, when I do my part to pray and study, I can gain further understanding." She also says that we should treat revelation the same we do rain: we can't force it to come. We can go to places it might more likely be, we can store it when it does come, but we can't demand it to come, or even predict it. It's important that we just trust God and His timing, and recognize that He is the one who decides when and how we learn things. And there's a reason for that!

And Elder Christofferson: "Thoughtful planning and preparation are key to a rewarding future, but we do not live in the future—we live in the present. It is day by day that we work out our plans for the future; it is day by day that we achieve our goals. It is one day at a time that we raise and nurture our families. It is one day at a time that we overcome imperfections. We endure in faith to the end one day at a time. It is the accumulation of many days well-lived that adds up to a full life and a saintly person. And so I would like to talk to you about living well day by day."

Pray as a tool for applying Jesus

The end of Alma 31 taught me so much about prayer this time. The prayer that Alma offers in that section teaches a few things. First, Alma starts his prayer by giving specific information about the situation, information that Heavenly Father already knew (and Alma was aware of that) but he gave it nonetheless. It was like Alma was explaining the situation to justify what he would plead for next. It can be that way for me. Also, I think talking about how we are feeling and going through the situation can help us see things more clearly and know better what to ask for. Second, Alma prayed for a few really specific things, and he applied each one to the Savior or His Atonement: strength, comfort, help in bearing burdens, success in bringing others unto Him, and for his brethren. That is also something I can and should use prayer for. I should think about my situation, and tell Heavenly Father about it. then I should pray for really specific things, and figure out how the Savior specifically could help.

thoughts about the new prophet

I was praying to know that President Nelson is a mouthpiece for God. I think I know he was called of God, that he has all the keys, that he's prophet. But I wanted to know if what he said and did was inspried of God. There have been things in the past very few in my lifetime, but I can think of a thing or two, like the transgender comment and how he said it, when he came to Omaha) times when someone has said something and I've wondered if it really was from God, or just from them. I think that, after this weekend's thoughts, i think that I should accept it all first, and then if something doesn't sit right, then pray about that. Instead of not accept any of it, and have to prove all of it. I am not sure if that is right, though, because then does that just mean I bleieve stuff if it sits right to me? Maybe not. Maybe it just means that if it doesn't sit right, I will go through the process to figure ourt if it is or not.

Anyway, I really loved PresidenT Nelson today. I have also loved everything that has happened since hehas been the president. The church's statement and stance on DACA recipients; the content in the Friend that talks about taking care of the earth, recycling, doing yoga and breathing, other cultures, and Heavenly Parents (not just Heavenly Father). And then today there were a lot of changes and I just loved them all. They all seem very inspired from the get-go (meaning I don't need to give them time to proveI just believe them straight away). There were some changes today: VTing and HTing are replaced with "ministering." I love that focus. VTing was getting so annoying, how you have to report the numbers and how that made it forced sometimes. Now it's just focused on needs. And how the YW are now involved in that. Just cool stuff.

President Nelson talked about receiving revelation. He said with all of the information and misinformation in the world, stuff that we read and see every day, it's so important that we learn how to receive revelation. It's too late to knowhow to hear and recognize the HG once a typhoon has already hit, for example. He said revelation might come litle by little. Another speaker said that the scriputre in D and C that talks about how it isn't needful that we ask in all things isn't referring to us asking God in all things. It's talking about asking the prophet in all things. This was life changing for me. Because it made me realize that I can and should ask God about way way more stuff! And that He will answer! It just doesn't mean that I can sit around and wait for an answer before I act. I still need to be anxiously engaged and all of that. So good and so interesting.

Anyway. I felt like everything Presideny Nelson said today was from God. I felt like he was inspried. I felt like he loed me and that he wants good, true good, to happen to all of God's children, not just certain ones.

Good examples go far

Alma chapter 20 is another great chapter about examples. 17 is good and 18 and 20 are good too. The way a man handles things and all three chapters or four chapters, ends up changing people's lives. Lamoni's father only gave him the time of day because he, a man, was treating him firmly, respectfully, and showing love for his son. And his intent was pure. Ammin only wanted to save his brother in. He didn't want power or glory or anything like that.

The Bible is good

I haven't really read the Bible to much, the Old Testament I mean, until this year in Sunday school. Besides Seminary, I guess. So far, it has been really really good. Lots of weird stuff, but those are just ancient and cultural. But there's some really cool gems. Like for example, when Abraham's servant went to get Rebecca to marry Isaac, he already knew that God was going to provide somebody probably. That he prayed and involves the Lord anyway, and the scripture says that even before he was done praying, Rebecca started coming toward him. It just made me think about how even when we are doing something we already know God wants us to do, we still should involve him in it, and he will always bless us. It also reminded me of the Bible dictionary section on prayer that talks about how heavenly father has blessings for us that he's waiting to give us, that are dependent upon us asking for them. So after reading that, I prayed and asked for some blessings that may be heavenly father is waiting to give me.

Another thing I read tonight that was cool was actually from The Book of Mormon. It was in Alma chapter 17, and they were actually two things. The first thing I liked was how the servants went, actually a chapter 18, to King Lamoni and said they didn't know if a man was a great spirit, but they did know a few things. They knew that amand could slay a bunch of people and that the wicked lamanites weren't going to mess with the King sheet when a man was around. I thought that was cool, and a an interesting analogy for how we can think about profits, or encourage people who don't know about them or if they are inspired of God yet. I mean, we can look at the fruits first and use them as evidence for the truthfulness of something. They didn't know that a man was a prophet or if he was God, but they knew that he was good because of what he did. And then related to that, the other thing I liked is that King Lamoni thought that Aaron was God. It made me think how much I reflect God or not. I want two more. By my language and the way I feel toward others and treat them, and also just what I talk about. Wouldn't it be amazing if someone mistook me for God? Obviously that would never happen, but it's a good thing to shoot for.

Obedience related to testimony

It is. See  Evans's talk in Oct 17

Temple blessings

I read an article or two in the Ensign tonight about attending the temple and the blessing it can be for us. One quote said that it would bless us in every aspect of our lives.

It made me remember how the summer I got married, I didn't have very much money, and I only got scheduled with Rock 101 for so many weeks, even though I wanted more. But through working in the temple, I met Keith Terry. And he hired me as an editor for quite a few things. That brought in income that I desperately needed! I really had 0.0 when I got married, and without Keith, I would have been in the negative.

Temple attendance has blessed me in other ways too. I've learned things and felt the spirit. I've questioned a lot of things and been through the refiner's fire enough about spiritual things that (at this point, at least) I know this church is still where I want to be.

Alma spoke to people who were already good

Alma 7 is him speaking and teaching to people who were already being faithful. It's cool. He still told them to repent, but not as much. He focused more on teaching about Jesus Christ, and then on telling them to keep keeping the path straight and keeping their temples holy so God could be with them. Alma saved the good stuff, like teaching them to be humble, gentle and submissive, easy to be entreated, and diligent in learning God's word, for them! Good people already!

He also said, wanna do more good works? Just have faith, hope, and charity, and it will come naturally.

Remember?

The biggest theme that is sticking out to me right now in the scriptures is remembering. I read Alma 5 and was more touched than ever about how much he says remember, or implies it. It seems so pertinent to my life and to my day, because I often do have to call upon my memory of a feeling, of a witness, in order to get me through times of doubt or worry or discomfort. And it is so pertinent to so many of my close friends. Landon, Jessie, Lauren. Remember/ Remember when things helped you? When doing the good things helped you? When Christ helped you/forgave you/lifted you?

The Book of Mormon is true to me right now because of all the incredible and valuable and golden things it teaches. Little nuggets of pure gold that are just so inspired. They help me get closer to Christ and be kind to others and love and improve and be humble. Nothing else has such power in the world, I don't think.

I finished reading it with the prayer in my heart of, what can I do better? What am I forgetting? How can I strip myself of pride more and be more humble?

So far, it's continuing to speak kindly and feel kindly toward people. And thinking more about the YW and putting more into my calling. But there will be more.

Loving those who choose to leave

Elder Richard G. Scott counseled:
“Many of you have heavy hearts because a son or daughter, husband or wife, has turned from righteousness to pursue evil. My message is for you.
“Your life is filled with anguish, pain, and, at times, despair. I will tell you how you can be comforted by the Lord.
“First, you must recognize two foundation principles:
“1. While there are many things you can do to help a loved one in need, there are some things that must be done by the Lord.
“2. Also, no enduring improvement can occur without righteous exercise of agency. Do not attempt to override agency. The Lord himself would not do that. Forced obedience yields no blessings (see D&C 58:26–33).
“I will suggest seven ways you can help.
“First, love without limitations. … Second, do not condone the transgressions, but extend every hope and support to the transgressor. … Third, teach truth. … Fourth, honestly forgive as often as is required. … Fifth, pray trustingly. ‘The … fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much’ (James 5:16). …
“Sixth, keep perspective. … When the things you realistically can do to help are done, leave the matter in the hands of the Lord and worry no more. Do not feel guilty because you cannot do more. Do not waste your energy on useless worry. … In time, you will feel impressions and know how to give further help. You will find more peace and happiness, will not neglect others that need you, and will be able to give greater help because of that eternal perspective. …
“One last suggestion—Never give up on a loved one, never!” (in Conference Report, Apr. 1988, 69–71; or Ensign, May 1988, 60–61).

One reason for prayer

Idea: One reason prayer is important is that it helps s get to thinking about other people. Heavenly Father wants all of his children cared for, so He that is probably one reason He uses prayer. When we are praying, we are thinking beyond ourselves and we are trying to think about His will. That helps us think about others.

Agency and mortality

Moses and Abraham (the books) have a lot of stuff about mortality and the purpose. I am being blessed for keeping my first estate, and these blessings come in the form of trials and testing too. Heavenly Father is doong it for me. He wants me to be sure, to truly have the pure chance to choose him.

Self worth

I have been feeling a little bit low on my self-worth lately. It's causing me to compare myself to others and feel like my life isn't as cool as it could be or whatever. Getting on social media never helps with this. So I think I need to avoid it for a little while. But I ready to talk from October 2017 by Sister Jones about our value and how the Holy Ghost can help us feel of our value, especially during Quiet Moments when we receive simple feelings. I've experienced those often through my life and they are truly such blessings. Those are indications that the Lord sees me worthy to receive impressions she also mentioned a few methods of increasing our self-worth. She mentions the scripture about letting virtue garnish our thoughts and having charity toward others. She says that we can control our thoughts and choose to avoid negative thoughts or self-doubt. I need to be better about redirecting my thoughts. She also talks about focusing on the atonement and the Savior and what he did for me to give me self-worth. She says to give energy and love toward the Savior, and that as we do so his love and energy will flow into us. She says, if the pull of the world is stronger than the faith and trust we have in the Savior, then the pull of the world will prevail every time. She is saying that we have a choice where we focus our energies and everything and what we respond to. And there are results for those choices. Anyway, I just want to focus more and think more about my covenants and the Savior. I want to redirect my thoughts and use positive self-talk, and have virtuous thoughts.